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I can't believe it's been four years since my Mom died. So much has happened...graduate school, surgeries, falling in love and more. Four years ago I couldn't have fathomed I could do it without her. I still have those days but I know she is always with me and that keeps me going. She is the reason for any goodness in me. I think of her everyday. I miss her everyday. I love her everyday. I hope one day to be like her. 

This is a song from the broadway musical Little Women. It reminds me to be thankful for the time I had with my Mom and to remember that she is still a part of my life. 

I never dreamed of this sorrow,

I never thought I'd have reason to lament,

I hoped I'd never know heartbreak,

How I wish I could change the way things went!

I wanted nothing but goodness,

I wanted reason to prevail,

Not this bare emptyness.

I wanted Days of Plenty.

But I refused to feel tragic,

I am aching for more than pain and grief.

There has got to be meaning,

Most of all when a life has been so brief.

I have got to learn something,

How can I give her any less?

I want life to go on.

I want Days of Plenty

You have to Believe,

There is reason for Hope.

You have to Believe 

That the answers will come.

You can't let this defeat you.

I won't less this defeat you.

You must fight to keep her there,

Within you!

So Believe that she matters!

And Believe that she always will!

She will always be with you!

She'll be part of the days you've yet to feel!

She will live in your bounty!

She will live as you carry on your life!

So carry on,

Full of Hope,

She'll be there,

For all your Days of Plenty